not as ready as I thought

So, about 4 months ago when we were in the height of our sleep deprivation and chaos of caring for 2 newborns. I told Dan that I was done...no more babies. I couldn't do this again, it was too hard and I am getting too old to be doing this. I began thinking about how good it would feel to have a yard sale and start purging some of this baby stuff that's taken over our life.

Fast forward 4 months:  Last night, I was going through tubs of clothes the girls have outgrown already. I wanted to start sorting things for a yard sale. As I was going through the clothes it made me realize that I really don't know if we're "done".  I don't think I want go through pregnancy again or the newborn stage, but I'm really not sure our family feels complete yet.  Dan and I have talked and we know we want to try fostering at some point and adoption is something we want to strongly consider. So, I don't know. I was so gung-ho on getting rid of stuff, but now I'm having mixed emotions...and maybe that's natural for anyone if they think that they're not going to have any more babies. 

When you're "done", do you just know it?

Well, after a whole week of not showering...I really don't have any answers. I had a slight reaction to nickle...but wether or not that's causing the soreness on my hands...I don't know.  Nickle is in everything. It's in food, household items, pots and pans, utensils...and many other things.  It's frustrating.